I am sorely tempted to delete my previous posts. Not because I want to erase them from memory and from the internet forever — quite the contrary, I am bad at erasing things, and I usually love to keep stuff even if it’s painful to keep them. It’s just because I want to start over with this whole writing at a blog thing.
You know what? I’ve been starting over for a long time. I start over, and then forget to update, and then start over, and then forget to update, and then so on and so forth.
I started blogging at 17, I became good at it and kept daily rambling blog posts for three or four years. And then I stopped, because I realized things are getting too personal. After that I attempted to make another blog — this one — while keeping my old livejournal, which was for fandom, geekiness and weirdness only. But I stopped updating that too. Which brings me to the present. Now.
Now I kind of want to write again. Kind of being the operative words here. I don’t want to say, oh, I’m going to write daily from now on, and I’ll keep this blog interesting but at the same time impersonal, and I’ll get my groove back. But if I say that most likely that will not happen. So let me just say,
I’ll start again, okay?
I’ll start today, and see if I can write or post something tomorrow. And then the next day, the other day, etc. I just miss thinking and writing — but not writing for money. Just writing, writing with no promises, no expectations. Just writing what’s on my mind.
Hmm, maybe I won’t delete my posts. No harm keeping them anyway.
